Everything you amount to in this life means nothing in the next one

Red rose petals shaped like clouds, Fall on my heart Full of doubts Where am I? And what do I want? To find my peace And stop the haunt

Monday morning, 8:45, Another dream sequence has come alive Simple people Have it so easy They don't wake up in the morning with mind numbing anxiety They don't have a speck of Sense for philosophy, Or think about existence on this small blue planet.. Well, what did you want me to say, Janet? I'll feel sad on your behalf instead <sigh> Another day has come, When I look in the mirror Who's this sorry A$$ who's staring at me in the corner Woke up in the morning with a massive hangover Popped in some algo for the pain to leave slower... <hits vape> Honest to god I just wanna write a song (where I don't feel like every single word is wrong) where I don't feel that every word I write is wrong Honest to god I just want to live in a world Where I don't feel a cliché when I sing this song Maybe Tomorrow I'll be better Once the vision fades On how I met her She was comfortably sitting on my left shoulder, Weighing heavier than a boulder.... Goddamn. Clouding my mind With thoughts That were there getting stronger getting stronger getting stronger When I sipped on my wine When I sipped another glass of wine Monday morning, 8:45, Another dream sequence has come alive

Trainwreck of thoughts My old records Keep on repeating the same songs An easy release Constantly out of reach Moments to freeze with a broken camera These days I feel I need to heal Hidden behind your golden makeup Measured by worth Endlessly hurt Our time is over Old and used up Stay until dawn Golden Wakeup Stay until dawn Golden Wakeup Golden Wakeup Golden Wakeup Golden Wakeup Golden Wakeup

eyes are sore hurt before winter's came season four shattered lamp missed the tram watch TV enjoy the scam just my life on display nothing wild slow decay live like that off the map still untouched plastic wrap wait until my show comes on wait till I turn my last stone your life flashed before my eyes keeping me from paradise there's no gloom just missing light no wound just a bullet to bite every day's calling for more every day closes the door there's an ocean and a mountain and the sun that dried my well swim the deep shore walk the seafloor find my lost soul in the shell there's an ocean and a mountain and the sun that dried my well swim the deep shore walk the seafloor find my lost soul in the shell wait until my show comes on wait till I turn my last stone your life flashed before my eyes keeping me from paradise there's no gloom just missing light no wound just a bullet to bite every day's calling for more every day closes the door ... ocean ... mountain ... sunlight ... too bright ... deep shore ... see floor ... no shell ... cold hell find you in the fragments of the past following your shadow overcast every part of my survival act aims to break this lethal eye contact now you have my ghost under your bed trapped inside the shell to stop the spread silence in my brain long overdue words don't change this world but now you do find you in the fragments of the past following your shadow overcast every part of my survival act aims to break this lethal eye contact now you have my ghost under your bed trapped inside the shell to stop the spread silence in my brain long overdue words don't change this world but now you doo doo o doo o oo oo oo find you in the fragments of the past following your shadow overcast every part of my survival act aims to break this lethal eye contact now you have my ghost under your bed trapped inside the shell to stop the spread silence in my brain long overdue words don't change this world but now you doo doo o doo o oo oo oo

Standing outside, looking in Trying to enter But the door is shut in, The door is shut in "That boat has sailed son." Like Like looking down, A barrel of a gun I take the last step Drink the last drink Drop the keychain, into the sink. This place is lost, this place is lost, Tomorrow the contractor, comes. This place is lost, is lost x2 Tomorrow, the contractor comes